5 month hiatus CROCKHEAD RETURNS

Hello Mainchanners!

It seems like there are more of you now. Or maybe the regular gang of 20 posters kicked into high gear. It has been 5 months since I said I was done using this website. In the meantime a few things happened but none of them are really important.

A few days ago this would have been a positive update but I feel kinda down right now unfortunately. Looking at my post history that seems like a standard thing for me (Laugh out loud).

Currently I feel my life moving in gentle cycles. It gets good, then better, then really, really good, then I feel the peak hit, and suddenly the slope down begins and it gets worse, worser, then the worstest, then I feel the trough hit, and suddenly the slope up begins. This occurs on roughly a 2.5 to 3 month interval and I keep track of the eras in my life so I know what's coming next. Generally, as a rule, it does get better slowly over time. The lows are never as low as they were before. I make good money and am not entirely socially isolated. But I do have some personal issues that I want to bring up.

A few days ago I parted way with someone whom I had been seeing for a few weeks. We agreed it was a good idea because there was no real spark between the two of us and the relationship until that point had felt strangely platonic in a way that a romantic relationship should not feel. I feel like I screwed up in several ways entering that relationship.

1. Took it too quickly. We felt like becoming exclusive within a few weeks.

2. I made choices in the moment without forethought.

3. Verbosity does not equate to real chemistry.

Unfortunately I feel like I miss her but that's just the breaking of an established routine hitting. But I do know one thing, for some reason, pursuing someone gives my life meaning. At least it makes it easier to get through the work day.

This post is for nobody in particular, and it probably didn't need to be said.

But I said it anyways suqqaz!!!

Might stick around again now. Peace bros.