The idea of being able to live a genuine happy life with people who care about you is a fantasy fueled exclusively by media.
As an adult all media is escapism, you watch something about High Schoolers and you get to feel like you're in High School again.
I suppose the irony is that the real world is completely fake too. All actors, everyone is an actor playing a role that they think will benefit them.
All anyone seems to genuinely care about is money. How do I make the most money? How do I get the most power? How do I put myself above others?
I feel like I missed the memo or something, it wasn't until my senior year of College that I realized this. I guess I just held onto hope that the world wasn't so evil and that I was just being dramatic.
Today I got an email about a job offer, I mentioned it to my parents, all they said was "wow thats a nice area I'm sure you'll get lots of money" and other quips about how much money I'll make in that area.
I don't want to work there. It doesn't line up with my future plans at all, but they don't care about that. All they wanted to talk about was money, not what I wanted or cared about.
Hell, the only reason I went to college at all was because of "Money", they forced me to go less I became homeless.
Fuck money. I'm so tired of this shit. I hate living in this fucking fake world where everywhere constantly just wears a mask.
I had my life controlled as a child and now I feel like I'm about to have my life controlled as an adult. Can I just feel in control for one fucking second of my existance?
Oh well, thats life.
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