I've gotten myself in a place that I can't stand but getting out of here is gonna be too painful. I have been here for far too long. The damage has already been done and there is no way of undoing it. I should have never went this way. All I have now is regret. I have planned an escape by now but it will take some time for it to come to fruition. For now I gotta continue wearing a mask, acting like everything is fine when in fact it isn't. I can't believe I have been lying to myself for so long, trying to make myself think that I was happy when in fact I wasn't. I was too afraid to accept the truth, that's why. But now I have come to acknowledge it. Nearly eight months of constant depression and mental exhaustion, coupled with a fake smile welded onto my face that I was unable to tear off. I guess it's just karma fucking me up for the pain I have caused people in the past. But whatever, soon it will all end.
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