An update on my life

I admit to myself, I think that I’m an edgy teenager. Ever since I was 11, I’ve had unmoderated internet and been and participated in things I don’t think someone at that age should be exposed to. Ive been active on sites like 4chan, ao3, DB, twitter, ect, which subsequently leads to me developing relationships with terrible people. I’ve developed a problem with drinking most recently, some substance abuse, and sh. My mom consistently calls me sociopathic, abusive, unstable, ect. And finally accepting I have an issue, my mom wanted to get me some therapy. And even though I’m still really young, and I’m extremely fortunate in terms of wealth. For example, I attend a private school, do sports, have a group of good friends, and live in a $3M house. Realistically I feel like I shouldn’t even be in the situation I’m in because of my environment. Being honest with myself, I don’t think I’ll ever fully stop my internet connection with the sites I still commonly visit, but I think that I can maintain it to a point where I’m not doomed for failure.

My family just bought another house yesterday, and we plan to move there by the end of this month. I think this will be good, I will have a new room, new friends, new place. Granted I think it will be uglier and more plain looking than Vancouver, less people for sure.

I always try to think about my life if the internet wasn’t what consumed me for the past nearly 6 years of my life. Before all this, I had a bracelet business I would set up at the farmers market, volunteer with my friend, and do a lot of self learning. I think gradually I’ve been trying to rebuild those aspects of me that I am fond of, I’ve began volunteering again, doing more sports and focusing on taking walks. I do have some setbacks though, I’m attending physiotherapy for my joints, and I have to wear these heavy duty knee braces that help me stand properly and prevent me from experiencing severe pain.

Regardless of these few bumps in my life, I think that over a long period of time, as long as I’m working on not becoming a NEET or a fag, I’ll be okay.

God bless America